Yesterday, I was mindfully aware of the food I ate and the daily decisions I made. Some decisions were good, such as going to the gym despite not feeling like it, and choosing a salad when my son and I went to Zaxby's for lunch. Some decisions were bad like eating a peanut butter sandwich when I got hungry mid-day, and eating a small piece of cake when I went to another Christmas party last night. I wish I had more self-control to choose healthy every single time. I know that eventually I will step into my "perfect you" but for now I will keep plugging along - striving to finish the race well.
This morning I am tired, again. I am tired of thinking and striving and pushing and pulling. I just want to rest and feel like it's okay to be me. I opened my bible this morning, I landed on Isaiah 35 - Hope for Restoration. What a beautiful time to receive this message. Isaiah 35:3-4 says "With this news, strengthen those who have tired hands, and encourage those who have weak knees. Say to those with fearful hearts, "Be strong and do not fear" for your God is coming to destroy your enemies. He is coming to save you." Oh Lord, I needed to read and receive this message this morning. When I get discouraged, I need to turn to your word and remember that you have already defeated all things negative in this world. I know that your kingdom is not of this world, and that my time here is temporary. Yet, while I am here I want to offer my life as a living sacrifice to you. This morning, I hand over all forms of selfish ambition, jealousy, and discontentment. In the name of Jesus, I release busy-ness, all forms of bondage and addiction. Take away everything that interferes with my relationship with you. Help me to walk in peace, joy and love. Help me to slow down and breath. It is only when I am in your presence that I am reminded of how lovely my life is. This morning I will be quiet. I will rest in your word. I am always amazed Lord by the words of your prophet, Isaiah. It's incredible that 600 years before Christ, Isaiah spoke of the coming of your son, and our savior, in Isaiah 53 - The Suffering Servant. Reading these passages in Isaiah are like fertilizer to my soul. Thank you so much for leaving us both your Word, and your Holy Spirit. I can't imagine how difficult and unfulfilling my life would be without you. Thank you for letting me wallow in your presence this morning. I surrender all to you.