I have a question.
Is it possible that Judas
Is it possible that Judas
died by suicide
and went to Heaven?
The scripture says
that Judas felt remorse
for betraying Jesus.
“When Judas saw
that Jesus was condemned,
he was seized with remorse
and returned the thirty pieces of silver
to the chief priests and the elders.”
And it says,
he went to the high priests,
and recognized his sin,
“for I have betrayed innocent blood.”
But the high priests said,
“What is that to us?”
“That’s your responsibility.”
So Judas threw the money
into the temple and left.
Then he went away & hanged himself.
My question is did Judas take his own life
because he felt that judgment
laid in his own hands?
I mean, the priests said,
“it is your responsibility.”
Since he was not forgiven by men,
did Judas think
he could not be forgiven by God?
I keep tossing in my head,
is it possible that Judas repented to God -
the moment just before he stepped out
into the rope?
“Is it possible that Judas is with Jesus
sitting in Heaven?
Is he ready to help rule over
the New Jerusalem?”
did Judas only repent to men,
or did Judas repent to God?
I don’t know the answer to this.
But I do know this,
“With man it is impossible to be saved,
but with God all things are possible.”
Jesus once said to his disciples,
“Truly I tell you,
at the renewal of all things,
when the Son of Man
sits on his glorious throne,
you who have followed me
will also sit on twelve thrones,
judging the twelve tribes of Israel.
And everyone who has left houses
or brothers or sisters or father or mother
or wife or children or fields for my sake
will receive a hundred times as much
and will inherit eternal life.
But many who are first will be last,
and many who are last will be first.”
And He said to the Twelve,
when he predicted his own death,
“We are going up to Jerusalem,
and the Son of Man
will be delivered over
to the chief priests
and the teachers of the law.
They will condemn him to death
and will hand him over to the Gentiles
to be mocked and flogged and crucified.
On the third day, he will be raised to life!”
And yet he would be the one
who would follow the flesh
by desiring money over loyalty to God.
And yet, that did not last long.
Judas threw the money
back where it came from
when he realized what he had done.
It’s a horrible thing -
attached to so much pain, remorse and grief.
The feeling is like being
in a burning building with no way out.
Like losing breath,
with no way to escape impending death.
You see, Peter denied Jesus,
yet he repented and became the Rock
upon which Jesus would build His church.
Judas, well, I guess we just don't know -
he died by suicide before we could see
the end result.
I wonder, what do you think?
Is Judas with Jesus,
or was he destined to hell?
It is my hope
that Judas cried out to God
with his very last breath.
But in this realm, I will never know.
*Now I have to add something
onto this poem, because someone
brought to my attention John 17:12,
where Jesus said,
“While I was with them,
I protected them and kept them safe
by that name you gave me.
None has been lost
except the one doomed to destruction
so that Scripture would be fulfilled.”
It appears Judas must not have truly repented.
The gospel according to John says that Judas
was a man of perdition,
a man who allowed Satan to come in
and spread lawlessness.
And the reason that Jesus gave
was so that the Scripture would be fulfilled.
So - there is another question that I have.
Does God choose us to accomplish His purpose,
or do we choose Him?
Oh Lord, thank you for leading us
to dig into your Word -
to edify and encourage each other
about your truth.