THE FRACTURED MIND

The fractured mind
is far from free.
It sits in the space
of insanity.

Obscure thoughts
wander around the trees
within the Jungle of
FEAR and ANXIETY.

When FEAR takes hold
it can cause me to dread...
"What's in the murky waters
of where I now tread?"
"What negative thoughts
are lurking in my head?"
"Why can't I escape
the monster I have wed?"

I must be on alert 
when I hear a sound,
he may reach out to grab me,
and pull me underground.

Twisty thoughts entrap, 
causing me to trip -
these distorted thoughts
become my daily fix.

Tricks - everywhere
They do not go away!
They get me off the path
and cause me to stray!

CONFUSION
constantly fills my head!
I can not focus
on anything but RED! 

The bad becomes the good,
and the good becomes bad.
My mind is turning inside out -
I've become the walking dead.

Round and round I go,
draining in a dream, 
RUMINATING
through a conscious stream.

DELUSIONS
bubble up on top -
My heart begins to race
and it will not stop.

DANGER
comes into the light.
The only response I have
is to freeze, flee or fight.

PANIC ATTACK
My breath begins to fade
My eyes dilate, 
I think I'm going to faint.

I wish I had wings,
so I could fly away.
I'd find the nearest hole
to escape and hide away.

Since I'm not a bird,
and only have my feet.
I'll run like hell to avoid
having to face constant defeat.

I'm always on the lookout
for the great escape -
the problem is I don't know
what is real or what is fake.

DISTRESS
my mind is such a mess!
Twisty thoughts
inside my head
rob me of my sleep!

EXHAUSTED
I can barely open my eyes,
but at the same time,
I just can not rest!

I can not eat.
My stomach begins to turn.
Acid is released,
my throat is beginning to burn.
Get out of my way,
I think I'm going to hurl!

What the hell
is happening to me?
Does no one see,
the struggle inside of me?

HELP!
Save me from myself.
Someone cut the cord
of my ANXIETY!

FEAR and OVERWHELM,
it's more than I can take.
Help me get out of my head,
for goodness sake!

This jungle that I'm in,
is not just a dream.
It's the Land of Fear and Dread
living inside my head!

Everywhere I turn
another arm extends
FEAR
it fills my fucking head!

I think I'm going insane,
and I don't know what to do.
I'm running around in circles,
and I'm so confused.

I think I'm going to explode
if I continue to digest
these upsetting thoughts
taking over my conscious.

Everything is bad.
Where can I find good?
Encouragement does not work
when you speak to me in "shoulds"!

If I could,
don't you think I would?
Your constant criticism 
shows me
that I'm totally misunderstood.

Worry about nothing -
this is what you say.
Take a deep breath,
and focus on today.
You must begin to pray,
this is what you say -
God will heal your mind,
and show you the way.
Oh, how I must be astray
because I do leaves me more 
LOST and AFRAID.

God,
Grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
If I must walk
through this jungle of darkness,
help me to fear no evil
through your rod and your staff.
Comfort me.
Shelter me in your presence.
Heal me from these thoughts
that keep me in my mess.
Renew a right spirit,
and remove the darkness.
Create in me a clean heart,
that only in you exists.
I will stand ready,
to hold onto you Lord.
I will open up my Bible
and take in your Word.​
"Do not be anxious,
about anything,
but in everything,
by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving,
present your requests to Me." 
I will give you peace,
which transcends all understanding,
I will guard your heart
and your mind in Christ Jesus”
Philippians 4:6-7
I now see,
what I must do.
I must sit and rest,
and patiently wait for you. 
I will continue
to believe in the truth,
that I am your child
who you want to soothe.
Play your harp for me
let me listen in my head,
I choose to trust your Spirit,
instead of the tormenting spirit of dread.
I will focus on
whatever is true,
whatever is noble, 
whatever is right,
whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely,
whatever is admirable -
if anything is excellent 
or praiseworthy,
I will think about these things.
Philippians 4:8

You were designed for perfect peace.
Take his yoke upon you,
and experience his ease.
​Matthew 11:28-29