Over the last few days, I have been regressing and falling into the same abyss, the same cycle and the same habits that have kept in me food bondage for years! I make good progress, and then (BOOM), merry-go-round I go. Each time, the circle gets a little wider and the ride lasts a little longer, but nonetheless, there I am, back on the crazy cycle.
I went 21 days of making positive, strong and healthy food choices. This week, however, has been a slow fade. In looking back at my blog posts, it appears my decline started with "BUSY-NESS". I haven't had time a lot of time to pray, write and process information, which, in food life, means I haven't taken the time to rest, digest and eliminate. I am so glad that Christmas vacation is coming. I need the break from my busy-ness bondage.
"If the Devil can't make you bad, he will make you busy," comment made by Pastor Justin years ago that I will never forget. In our marriage group, a friend told me that BUSY means being under satan's yoke. Take In, Take In, Take In. Over-stimulate the mind. Indulge. Go, Go, Go. It's all wonderful in the moment, but the long-term consequences are devastating. My intentions are so good. I set a plan but then I fall into temptation because I don't follow through with the plan.
In my devotional time this morning, I ask that the Holy Spirit lead me and show me what HE wants me to know. I opened to Proverbs 3: Trusting in the Lord. "My child, never forget the things I have taught you. Store my commands in your heart. If you do this, you will live many years, and your life will be satisfying. Never let loyalty and kindness leave you! Tie them around your neck as a reminder. Write them deep within your heart. Then you will find favor with both God and people, and you will earn a good reputation. Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and do not lean on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Don't be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones."
"Don't be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones." Oh the Lord is so good. There it is! Don't be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. THEN...
I started the blog is with "If the devil can't make you bad he will make you busy" and "being under satan's yoke". When I am so busy that I don't have time for God, I am putting myself out there as a target for the enemy. While information is good, if the bulk of it does not come from the Lord, in the form of scripture and Spirit, then I am not taking in the purest, essential nutritional elements for my soul.
I feel the Lord is leading me to fast. I don't know much about fasting except that the Lord wants me to meditate on His word, and not on food. Therefore, today I will fast from all solid food. Just thinking about it makes me a little uneasy but I know I have to trust in the Lord with all of my heart. I know this is the right thing to do.