“Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain.” Ps. 127:1
Each day, I will be selecting a bible verse (or should I say each day a bible verse will be selecting me) to guide my thought process and writing. The reality is that when I am in the Word, I believe that it is the Holy Spirit who guides me into choosing a bible verse that fits my present need. Today, I was led to Psalm 127:1. For me, this verse screams out the dire need to put God first in all circumstances and tasks. I spent many arduous years toiling away to find happiness and fulfillment in my work, marriage and self-concept/esteem. The more I obtained, the more I desired. It was never enough, and I always felt like I was running in circles. In the year 2016, after laying all my burdens at the cross, I experienced a spiritual attack from the enemy that almost took my life. During that year, I was stripped of all pride and ambition. Years of shame, depression and anxiety related to various life events snowballed into an avalanche of depressive, self-inflicting thoughts. But God. Little did I know that God was allowing my heart to be changed.
For years, I lived as a carnal Christian. I believed in Christ, but I was more influenced by earthly nature than by the nature of God. I put my thoughts and beliefs above God’s word. I would seek His will, but then I would go my own way. Looking back, it’s no wonder that I was always going in circles and always feeling like I took one foot forward and two steps back.
Today, I now understand what it means to be walking in the process of sanctification. The truth is that even after years of attending church, I never heard of the process of sanctification. It wasn’t until I fully submitted to God that I even considered the theory of sanctification, and I certainly did not know there was a name for it. Sanctification is the choice to submit my fleshly desires as a living sacrifice to the Lord. It is a choice to allow the Word of God to renew my mind. For instance, instead of saying, “I know God calls me to forgive, but I there is no way I can forgive someone who did _____”, I say, “I choose to forgive because God calls me to forgive as he has forgiven me.” I then ask the Holy Spirit to give me the power to walk through the process of forgiveness.
I now know that if I do not seek the Lord’s guidance on this weight loss journey, I will be putting forth wasted and pointless energy. In reference to the man at the pool of Bethesda (John 5), I also know that I have to get up, pick up my mat and walk. I must stop making excuses about my dependency to food and rise above my natural tendencies to stay stuck in food addiction. Today, before creating my GROW PLAN, I call upon the Lord to renew my mind. Help me stand firm in the Spirit of self-control and lead me not into temptation but deliver me from evil, for thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
Brainstorming my GROW PLAN…