What is this thing
that has crawled up inside of me, and why can’t I seem to make it go away? It seems the harder I try, the more it takes a hold of my life. Why won’t this feeling go away? It started slow. When she entered my life, I thought I met hope. She made me feel alive. The lonely me was dying inside, and then suddenly I met a fun companion to hang out with. This “friend” pretended to know what I was going through. She made me feel like I was not alone. I spent so much time not paying attention; and now, in my exhaustion, I just now realizing exactly who she is. How could I not know? I was so focused on how she made me feel, that I never took the time to see that she was not real! I never even saw the face of my new companion. I had no idea that her real name was Addiction. I honestly thought her name was Joy. But now it’s the middle of the night, and I am laying here, by myself, in the dark. I’m wondering why. Why do I feel so alone? Why are my feet stone cold? Why do I feel like I’m dying inside? I just want to cry! Where did my Joy go? Why is she nowhere to be found? My stomach is churning and my mind is racing, “What have I done?” Now look at me - I’m looking at so much lost time! Oh God, what have I done? Why did I choose to become friends with this crazy companion? In desperation, I toss and turn, and when I turn on my side - there she is! I am now face to face with my real companion. Addiction is staring me in the face. For the first time, my mind is awake. I see the real spirit who has crawled inside. Beneath the makeup, I see her eyes. She is staring back at me all crackhead and goggly-eyed. She mocks at me and whispers, “Hi.” Oh God, the voice of this temptress makes me cringe deep inside. Why? Oh God, Why? How did Addiction get in my bed? I don’t even remember letting her in. All I remember is Joy. How did this happen? Can I make up for lost time? Am I able to move on from the sin I've committed? I must try! You see, Addiction pretends to be your friend. She slithers in and makes you feel good, and then she hangs on tightly for dear life. Sometimes it’s alcohol, Sometimes it’s drugs, Sometimes it’s gambling, pornography or food; Sometimes it’s girls, sometimes it’s men, sometimes it’s just spending money over and over again. Addiction is about being tied. Addiction is tied to the flesh that takes over my mind. Addiction is actually the spirit of lust. She relies on you craving more of the flesh. She is tied to your thoughts, “I’m not good enough” tosses over and over in your head, and then comes in and makes you feel good. She takes your strength and makes you subside. Before you even know who Addiction really is, she sucks the soul right out of you. Maybe that is why? Maybe that is why I can never seem to overcome when I try! She takes and takes and never gives back. She lies. She tells you "You are not worthy." "You're not good enough." She tells you everyone else does not love you. She lies. Before you know it, you are sharing your bed with a demonic stronghold who likes to pretend. She baits you in, and kicks you when you are down. She makes you do things you would never imagine. She tries. But there is Hope. Hope is found in the blood of the Lamb. Hope is found in Jesus alone. I am here to wake you up. God has placed your life on my heart. You are worthy because of Christ. Christ died for the sins of every man. He loved you before you were even formed. He knows the tricks of Satan. He is the only person who has ever lived that has outwitted the tempting of Satan. Don’t be surprised. Satan attacks the flesh of every person. His desire is to slither in and then grab hold, to take you down to hell with him. But God! God’s right arm is longer than his. He saves every man who turns to him. Just cry out. Call out to Jesus and grab hold of His hand. God is a good Father waiting for you to turn to Him. Call on the name of Christ. Call on His name when you are afraid. Call on His name when you need refuge. Call on His name when you want to win. Call on His name and don’t give up! Jesus is the truth, the way and the life! He sheds His light into the darkness, and He exposes every demonic stronghold for what it is. All you have to do is just ask him to enter your heart and your mind. God’s Holy Spirit drives out demons! He has the power to remove Addiction! But it all starts with you acknowledging the truth. If Addiction is the demon you have been struggling with. If Addiction is the demon who you have invited into your bed. If Addiction is the lie that you have been living with, then it’s time to kick her out! God is waking you up. You were created with a purpose. Your life matters to Him. It is time to see Addiction for who she is. She is not the beauty you thought she was. She has been dragging you down into the pit of hell. It is time to shed light! The Lord is saying it is time to break every stronghold! It is time for His prodigal sons to come home. “When he finally came to his senses, he said to himself, ‘At home even the hired servants have food enough to spare, and here I am dying of hunger! I will go home to my father and say, “Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son. Please take me on as a hired servant.”’ “So he returned home to his father. And while he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. His son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son.’ “But his father said to the servants, ‘Quick! Bring the finest robe in the house and put it on him. Get a ring for his finger and sandals for his feet. And kill the calf we have been fattening. We must celebrate with a feast, for this son of mine was dead and has now returned to life. He was lost, but now he is found.’ So the party began.” Luke 15:17-24
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